I'm totally scared.
I've done this before! I don't know why I'm all butterflies and jelly legs, but I totally am. There are a lot of things that I love about the marathon, but there are a few things that make my knees go week, too. I can't narrow it down to any one reason, so here's the short list:
- I have to do it alone. I won't have Darcy to plug in all of those long runs with me. Part of me is really excited to see what I am really capable of without someone pushing me forward or holding me back, however, that is a lot of time to spend by myself. This loneliness leaves me feeling scared.
- Injury. I ended up with IT Band Syndrome (again!) two and a half weeks before my last marathon. It was frustrating, painful, and emotional. I don't want to go through that again. I know this comes with the territory, and this leaves me feeling scared.
- Training. This is a lot of dedication. Although I know I would be running anyway, knowing that you are "in training," and especially for a marathon, it all takes on a different feel. All these little boxes and numbers in black and white freak me out a little.
- 3:30. It's written in black and white. On my training schedule. By my bed. It. Scares. The. CRAP. Out. Of. Me.
What do you think is the scariest part of a marathon? Distance? Pain? The unknown- or the known?